Finding Balance During Transition

In October when Berry Man starting working at home full-time, I knew it was going to be a transition…for all of us. But I really don’t think I understood all of the transitions that would need to take place.

Since we are still building our homestead, we had several projects to last the whole winter…building a bigger chicken house, cutting firewood, building fences for future animals, and building our outdoor kitchen.

In past years, Berry Man and I have both worked full-time and tackled these “extra jobs” together in the evenings and weekends. But now that Berry Man is working here full-time, our hours have changed. Now, when I come home from work, Berry Man is also finishing up his day of work. This has greatly freed up our evenings and weekends for much needed family time.

All of these winter jobs were really jobs that Berry Man would lead for us anyway, and I would help out as needed. ¬†All winter, I just was feeling blessed to be able to relax a little. I could come home from work and my work would be done for the day…novel concept, I know.

Now that it is spring time, I am struggling  little more with the transition. I know it has been over six months since we have made this change, but this is the time of year we would really spend a lot of time getting things ready for the season. Now when I get home from work, everything is done.

I thought I would be grateful for the free time, and I am…but to be honest, I really miss it. Since I am the one with the summers off, I was more of the “manager” of the berry patch. Now, I am more of the assistant. I have spent the past several years researching and planning everything with the berries, and now I am releasing much of that work to Berry Man. I know he will do an excellent job, and I need to let it go so I can have more focused time with God and my family.

So tonight we sat down to discuss our roles and how they have changed. We talked about what parts of the farm are now part of Berry Man’s job and what parts I can continue as part of my “hobby time.”

I will continue to care for my beloved (and finicky) blueberries, and Berry Man will take care of the rest…at least until summer break. On the weekends, we spend time together and with our family, something we haven’t been able to do in quite some time–working full-time jobs on top of our berry farm.

And believe me, I’m counting down the days…until those three special months when I can focus all of my attention on my family, our homestead, and our berry business. It can’t come soon enough!

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